Family question Pt2 (REALLY LONG)?

You are not dysfunctional but as your type of family there is a gap and understanding. I didn't read the first part of ur question so i may be missing things. Here is my take because i am first generation but i am not like you in my thinking. Your parents have seen suffering you may not imagine understand or care to. Your mom is trying to make sure people think of her as "dirty immigrants" that usually is the umption by certain groups. She wants everything to be perfect because she knows how bad things were adn imperfect they are. You are not helping by your attittude because she feels they have wasted their time adn energy to give you better chances and life adn you are not taking advantages of! Even though you should have learned how difficult it is from you father who is working day adn night to make ends meet. It is expected from back home realtives to successed adn make better future. I am pretty sure people are lookign at yoru family adn waiting for the mess up. You are a teenager adfn it is not fair to expect so much from you. But i sugeest you get a hobby outside the house. Get soemthing that will capture your interest. You may be suffering from depression because you have mentioned death, forgotten and escaping from reality. Talk to a couselor in school, a friend someone ! I urge you! It may be best if you do so maybe then you are able to cope with the pressures and BTW, your mom is depressed and she also needs help. Good luck and hope things get better!